Sorry I like Harry Potter, thought I’d quote it because I couldn’t think of a good enough title.

You know when you don’t even know your own feelings, like I have a improper case of Bipolar, but only with the mood changing symptoms, nothing else. (I don’t really have Bipolar I’m just saying I have the mood changes like it.) Like, if I was head over heels one day then I’d start feeling different things and then I’d have a bad half an hour but then a brilliant fifteen minutes afterwards just because I do. 
I HAVE A PROM DATE GUYS. Yeah, in a non-sexual way because we both have relationships that we’d like to stick to. I bought my promdress/birthday party frock a few days but I’m not telling anyone what it is like because, well I want to enter my ‘birthday party’ with a bang. Did I mention my Prom was on my 16th? No? Well, now you know. I don’t know how exactly how to feel about this because I have a lot of my friends there in their prettiest and probably most expensive clothes but then again I have people there that I hate with a passion and I would rather shove a white-hot iron rod down my own neck than be in the same room with them. 
I’m having a hard time socializing, yeah I have a few close friends like unbelievably close friends (about 5) and we click straight away. But with others that I’ve known just as long, I find it impossible to keep up with their ‘craic’, their weird sayings and views on the world and sometimes I just wish I could have a translator with me 24/7 so I could understand the inside jokes and the ‘you had to be there’ moments. I miss my old friends, like badly but since I died for a month they don’t exactly like to socialize with me any more. Guess I’m diseased lol. 

I wish I could fall in love, at least once, even if it was only for a minute. Just so I can feel the rush that they are all ‘supposed’ to feel, I guess that’s impossible.

I love you fella’s.
and my milkshake brings all the girls to the yard cuz I’m a tranny. :|

xxxx